Home No More

I'm back in GA now for the first time in six months and the one thing I realize is that this place isn't home anymore. Nothing is the same. I'm a bit discontent actually, and I am very anxious. I have five months 'til my wedding. Then I'll leave GA for a long time - maybe forever.

       (Doesn't appeal to me anymore)

I find myself grasping at straws, trying to reclaim something I've lost. Everything hurts, but I feel numb too. I'm torn now. And I have no idea what I'm doing. But I see the finish line and I'm on my way. 

The problem is that I am afraid. I'm afraid of myself. I'm afraid of losing. I'm afraid to win. I can't be more specific than that I'm afraid.

So what's next? Well, I need to save $10,000 by September. I'm working on it. And if anyone wants to contribute to that, let me know! I'm not to the point of asking for handouts, but I never turn down gifts. :)

                    (I love this girl)

So anyway, I don't have much else to say tonight. I just wanted to post an update to keep the blog active and to make my habit of posting.